December 2010
14 posts
well it's that day again
Christmas… i love it. yesterday morning i was really upset because i was told that chris couldnt come spend christmas eve with me and my dad’s side of the family (waay more people than this house should hold) because he was going to do dinner at his grandpa’s house.
well i got the only i really wanted for christmas. his grandpa decided not to have dinner at his house because of...
just updates
just chillin at home alone with the doggy asleep on the couch next to me. i’ve just been thinking lately about who my friends really are. i feel like of the 6 girls i’ve been besties with since middle school i’m really only GOOD friends with two. this is a sad realization for me. i mean i know i will always love these girls but i feel like they aren’t making as much of an...
just a little tidbit from my heart
you look at her and see no scars, but do you really see her?
look into her eyes and tell me what you see
i know what you’ll see, a girl
hurt by the world and turning her back, running away from reality, from being a disapointment, a burden,
she doesnt want to be this, she looks in the mirror and sees a stranger.
what do you do when you hate who you’ve become? when you look in the...
Cut by Plumb
I’m not a stranger No I am yours With crippled anger And tears that still drip sore A fragile frame aged With misery And when our eyes meet I know you see I do not want to be afraid I do not want to die inside just to breathe in I’m tired of feeling so numb Relief exists I find it when I am cut I may seem crazy Or painfully shy And these scars wouldn’t be so hidden If you would...
what sarah said by death cab for cutie
And it came to me then that every plan Is a tiny prayer to father time As I stared at my shoes in the ICU That reeked of piss and 409 And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself That Ive already taken too much today As each descending peak on the LCD Took you a little farther away from me Away from me Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines In a place where we only say goodbye It...
looking to start an acappella group!!
if you guys know anyone in saint louis who is a singer looking to join a group PLEASE PLEASE POINT THEM MY WAY. i’m looking to start an acappella group like the ones on the sing off. (not glee… glee sucks) i’m hoping to make a group and audition for the Sing Off. (link below) but if not it’s alright. it’s all about the music <3
if you think someone you know might...
i really wanted to share
so i was listening to my meditation podcast about depression last night and it was soooo interesting…
he talked about how happiness is essentially learning to give and recieve unconditional love. i think what he said was “the basic goal is to give as much love as possible with the least amount of conditions and to learn to recieve the same” how deep is that? i dont really...
just some updates...
so the past few weeks have been a see saw.. first i’m going to meremac for the spring semester, then i’m staying at maryville for gen eds and going to meremac in the fall, then im NOT going to meremac and now i am… for real… i promise.
it’s been decided (officially, the point-of-no-return kind of decided) that i will be going to meremac in the spring. doing gen eds...
words just out of my mouth?
“oh shit it’s december” and then i silently rejoiced in my head <3 yay for winter!!!