something WILL change…
i have alot to say so i’m not gonna really worry about punctuation or spelling or whathaveyou…
ive decided that it’s time to grow up. i feel like ive been scared to grow up like being an adult was something to avoid. but ive gotten a hold of myself and its time. if i plan on moving out within this year i need to get a job and save alot of money. im currently working on that.
also im working on being a happier person. ive realized that ive had some anger and frustration problems recently and i dont want to be like that. i dont want people to avoid me because i lash out at them. im going to learn to breathe deep and let things go.
im going to lose weight. i believe that alot of my frustration problems stem from my self body image… which is really bad. after last semester i’ve hit me all time high of 200 lbs. my goal weight is 150. chris and i are motivating each other by having a race. if he loses more weight than me by my bday (nov 25), i have to buy concert tickets of his choice. if i lose more weight… well idk what i’ll have him do yet but it’ll be really girly… muahaha.. i really think i can do all of this. i’m motivated. i can do this
it’s time to suck it up buttercup….
