first day at meramec :)
well it went pretty well.. i only had two classes though and all we did was go over the syllabi.. i think im gonna like it here… if we get the dosage right on my concerta… ive been really jittery and shaky… i’m definately speeding(unintentionally though) idk if i like it. i mean i can get my stuff done but the feeling ive been getting is kinda annoying… i have to have something for my hands to do or else i get shaky.. which is why i decided to blog a bit more. it’s something for my hands to do.
as far as my weight war is going… well it isnt really… it will though once i start my dance aerobics class. that should be fun. i’m having difficulty visualising myself as 150 lbs.. which is the problem i think. i need to visualise my goal in order to reach it right? idk i just havnt been 150 lbs since like middle school…
man people here are a bit cranky… maybe it’s the first day of a new semester? maybe it’s the smoking ban on campus… people havnt had their morning cigarette…
while i enjoy being at meramec i can’t help but wonder if im missing something by staying home. i mean i love kirkwood but all my friends who are away have so much closer friends than i do… i mean i still have my maryville friends but idk i wish i had some here.
of course now is the part where i talk about chris… so if you dont wanna hear/see it skip this part… i think he’s really turning around. he’s working on quiting cigarettes after he started again… he’s really trying though. i just hope he’s not doing it for me.. i dont want that. i want him to change his life for the better for HIM. i know that might sound odd but i think people who say “do this for me?” are selfish.. they make that person dependant on them and what happens if that relationship turns for the worse? i want him to do this for him however i’m flattered that he’d be willing to quit if it meant more time with me.
anyways thats about it…
